When love is'nt enough

Certain songs in my set are breaking me down to my core. Where before they were just songs in the set, but the emotion pouring through these tunes are speaking to me like never before. I thought it may have something to do with a lack of one true love in my life.But I've been down that path before and longing for something suits me better than actually having it.My nature is to strive for what's over the next hill, the next ridge, through the door.It's what destroyed my first marraige and made me impossible to live with in my second.
Not easy living with a malignant narcissicist,but I've never been happier or healthier.
Many aspects of my current life I've no point of reference which makes life that much more interesting.